“Tujh mein Rabb dikhta
hai,yaara main kya karun ?
Sajde Sir Jhukta Hai,Yaara main kya karun ?”.
Sajde Sir Jhukta Hai,Yaara main kya karun ?”.
Kulsum,was singing these lines for me
on the Phone..as I began thinking of the time when we met.
7 months back-
7 months back-
I was getting bored at Home,college
holidays had begun and I wanted to spend my time doing something,I thought a
lot but couldn’t think of anything.
Everytime,during summers I just did swimming,for I loved it.
But,this time I wanted to do something else.
I was watching television switching between the channels when I stopped at one of the sports channels showing ASIAN GAMES-JUDO.
I decided to join for JUDO,for the summer…for I always wanted to do something like that and self-defence is something I think everyone should learn.
I joined K.D Singh Babu Stadium,a bit far from my place…but it was the best place.
It was my first day in there and I was to learn “Falling down”.
“Falling Down” ? wtf,anyone can Fall…whats about learning about it ?
and I was busy thinking about it,a Guy with a black belt tied to his waist,looked somewhat like me..and BAM ! I was on the matress.
It took me a while to realize I had fallen in a blink of an eye.
He looked at me,as I stood and told me “You have to tap the mattress as you fall”.
I said “alright”.
BAM ! the next moment I was on the mattress again,with a less hurt this time around.
But as I got up I said “Hey,Atleast let me know,when you are going to throw me down”.
I heard a giggle,as I said it.
I turned around,I saw a girl with hair upto her lower part of her ears,with a childish face giggling.
Before,I said anything,I checked out her BELT.
It was “GREEN”,I had never known a belt like that,so I thought of her BELT less and gave her a DON’T DO THAT AGAIN look !
She said “Sorry”.
I: what for ?
she: for laughing at you,when you fell.
I: so you laugh at people when they fall down eh ?
She : No,but…
I cared less of what she said,but the thing was I was angry and still as I was talking to her,it had vanished somewhere.
The day went on,in which I just learnt “How to FALL” & “Get up Quickly”.
“Getting up quickly”,had nothing to do with my morning SLEEP ! mind you !
In a few days,I became friends with Rachit,the guy who made me FALL around 30 times and Kulsum,the Girl I couldn’t stop my smile when I saw her.
We used to come a little early for our Judo-classes and went of late aswell.
I was getting to know her,and was loving every bit of her..the child she was,the stupid mistakes she used to do and how she used to get disbalanced when she walked without holding my hands.
I used to say “Mere bina kya hoga tumhara ?”.
and she used to SMILE and hold my hands firmly !
I got unwell for two days and didn’t go to the Judo-class,I couldn’t tell her about it for she didn’t had a cell phone ! Yeah,she didn’t have a cell phone..But as she told me,she was about to get it in a few days !
After,two days I went early to the Judo-class and I saw her there,the smile on my face was back as soon as I saw her.
She said “Where the HELL were YOU Nitesh Shilpkar ?”.
I,with a smile said “Baby,I wasn’t well”…and gave her a HUG.
She said “I missed you !”.
I looked up at her and said “Nah,I didn’t” ! and we both laughed.
She was happy about the fact,that I came back after two days and she got her much awaited CELLPHONE !
I was just happy to see her and with the thought now,we can talk even after the Judo-classes.
I proposed her the same day and took her number…as she left home,but she didn’t respond to my proposal.
It was after she reached home,I got a message saying “yes,I love you”.
I called her up,there was something in her voice that made me uncomfortable.
I asked her “What happened Kulsum ?”.
She said “ Don’t take me wrong,but m not sure”.
Everytime,during summers I just did swimming,for I loved it.
But,this time I wanted to do something else.
I was watching television switching between the channels when I stopped at one of the sports channels showing ASIAN GAMES-JUDO.
I decided to join for JUDO,for the summer…for I always wanted to do something like that and self-defence is something I think everyone should learn.
I joined K.D Singh Babu Stadium,a bit far from my place…but it was the best place.
It was my first day in there and I was to learn “Falling down”.
“Falling Down” ? wtf,anyone can Fall…whats about learning about it ?
and I was busy thinking about it,a Guy with a black belt tied to his waist,looked somewhat like me..and BAM ! I was on the matress.
It took me a while to realize I had fallen in a blink of an eye.
He looked at me,as I stood and told me “You have to tap the mattress as you fall”.
I said “alright”.
BAM ! the next moment I was on the mattress again,with a less hurt this time around.
But as I got up I said “Hey,Atleast let me know,when you are going to throw me down”.
I heard a giggle,as I said it.
I turned around,I saw a girl with hair upto her lower part of her ears,with a childish face giggling.
Before,I said anything,I checked out her BELT.
It was “GREEN”,I had never known a belt like that,so I thought of her BELT less and gave her a DON’T DO THAT AGAIN look !
She said “Sorry”.
I: what for ?
she: for laughing at you,when you fell.
I: so you laugh at people when they fall down eh ?
She : No,but…
I cared less of what she said,but the thing was I was angry and still as I was talking to her,it had vanished somewhere.
The day went on,in which I just learnt “How to FALL” & “Get up Quickly”.
“Getting up quickly”,had nothing to do with my morning SLEEP ! mind you !
In a few days,I became friends with Rachit,the guy who made me FALL around 30 times and Kulsum,the Girl I couldn’t stop my smile when I saw her.
We used to come a little early for our Judo-classes and went of late aswell.
I was getting to know her,and was loving every bit of her..the child she was,the stupid mistakes she used to do and how she used to get disbalanced when she walked without holding my hands.
I used to say “Mere bina kya hoga tumhara ?”.
and she used to SMILE and hold my hands firmly !
I got unwell for two days and didn’t go to the Judo-class,I couldn’t tell her about it for she didn’t had a cell phone ! Yeah,she didn’t have a cell phone..But as she told me,she was about to get it in a few days !
After,two days I went early to the Judo-class and I saw her there,the smile on my face was back as soon as I saw her.
She said “Where the HELL were YOU Nitesh Shilpkar ?”.
I,with a smile said “Baby,I wasn’t well”…and gave her a HUG.
She said “I missed you !”.
I looked up at her and said “Nah,I didn’t” ! and we both laughed.
She was happy about the fact,that I came back after two days and she got her much awaited CELLPHONE !
I was just happy to see her and with the thought now,we can talk even after the Judo-classes.
I proposed her the same day and took her number…as she left home,but she didn’t respond to my proposal.
It was after she reached home,I got a message saying “yes,I love you”.
I called her up,there was something in her voice that made me uncomfortable.
I asked her “What happened Kulsum ?”.
She said “ Don’t take me wrong,but m not sure”.
I : sure of what ?
she : This commitment thing,its not my cup of tea.
I : Fine,then leave it.
and I did cut down the call,as I said it.
Some festival was up,and the JUDO-classes were closed for two days,I didn’t message or call her for one entire day,neither did she.
The next day,around 3am,I got a call from her.I wasn’t asleep so I picked it up.
Kulsum was crying,and I asked her..what happened ?
She : M sorry,I’ve been a fool to make you wait..and I love you !
I: I love you too.
Stop crying and give me a HUG.
This was our beginning.
We broke up several times after this type of beginning,but Yeah,we always ended up being together..for Fights,break ups,doesn’t end up LOVE between two people !
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“Tumhein nahi pata kya kro ? POOJA kro meri !”…I said after she finished with the song.
She : “Shut up !”.
I :”I never knew,you loved me so much”.
She :” It was just a SONG Moron”.
I: yeah,I know that !
It was 5 in the morning and we had been talking like from 12am.
She asked me “college nahi jaana hai kya aaj ?”.
I : “Jaana to hai,but phone kaun rakhe ?”.
We had so much to talk,that we never finished talking !
Actually,it was WE- ME. !
I remember when we started wid our relationship and one-day I asked her “Why did you learn JUDO ?”.
She said “When she was young,she had gone through some physical abuse,which she never wants to go through again”.
I loved her,but that day I Promised myself “No matter what Happens,I’ll never let anything happen to this Girl”.
I treated her like a Baby,for she was one !
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2 Months ago-
We were at Marine.
we often used to go there for it was one of my most fav. Places.
She was sitting with her head over my shoulders and I was holding her hands.
SILENCE,sometimes between us that we were getting emotional.
I Held her face,looked her in the eyes.
and asked “What happened Baby ?”.
She hugged me tightly with Tears in her eyes.
I Looked at her again,wiping her tears and said “Phaltu mat roya karo,make up sara kharab ho jata hai”.
She
“Main make-up nahi lagati”.she : This commitment thing,its not my cup of tea.
I : Fine,then leave it.
and I did cut down the call,as I said it.
Some festival was up,and the JUDO-classes were closed for two days,I didn’t message or call her for one entire day,neither did she.
The next day,around 3am,I got a call from her.I wasn’t asleep so I picked it up.
Kulsum was crying,and I asked her..what happened ?
She : M sorry,I’ve been a fool to make you wait..and I love you !
I: I love you too.
Stop crying and give me a HUG.
This was our beginning.
We broke up several times after this type of beginning,but Yeah,we always ended up being together..for Fights,break ups,doesn’t end up LOVE between two people !
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“Tumhein nahi pata kya kro ? POOJA kro meri !”…I said after she finished with the song.
She : “Shut up !”.
I :”I never knew,you loved me so much”.
She :” It was just a SONG Moron”.
I: yeah,I know that !
It was 5 in the morning and we had been talking like from 12am.
She asked me “college nahi jaana hai kya aaj ?”.
I : “Jaana to hai,but phone kaun rakhe ?”.
We had so much to talk,that we never finished talking !
Actually,it was WE- ME. !
I remember when we started wid our relationship and one-day I asked her “Why did you learn JUDO ?”.
She said “When she was young,she had gone through some physical abuse,which she never wants to go through again”.
I loved her,but that day I Promised myself “No matter what Happens,I’ll never let anything happen to this Girl”.
I treated her like a Baby,for she was one !
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2 Months ago-
We were at Marine.
we often used to go there for it was one of my most fav. Places.
She was sitting with her head over my shoulders and I was holding her hands.
SILENCE,sometimes between us that we were getting emotional.
I Held her face,looked her in the eyes.
and asked “What happened Baby ?”.
She hugged me tightly with Tears in her eyes.
I Looked at her again,wiping her tears and said “Phaltu mat roya karo,make up sara kharab ho jata hai”.
I: arre Kajal bhi to make-up mein aata hai na ?
She : Tum stupid ho !
She held me tightly again,and said “You’re the Only one who can make me cry and smile”.
I : Humein pata hai !
We began kissing each other,and we forgot that we were sitting in a public place.
We stopped,looked around and laughed at our madness sometimes !
Same day,at night.
I called her a little late,for I had been scolded for some issues by my Dad and I didn’t want to talk to her in that bad mood,though I knew it would just get fine as I hear her voice.
I called her around 12:30pm,her call went busy.
She had that call waiting service so she always came to know that It was my call,and she would always call me in 5-10 minutes…and tellme the whole story of what happened and whom she was talking to.
I waited for her call,and the clock showed 1am,and she hadn’t called me up yet.
I called her up again,her call went busy again.
I got angry.
and messaged her “whom ru talking to at this point of time ? “.
I never got a reply.
I went to sleep in my anger.
I woke up the Inbox showed 1 message.
I opened up the message read “ We wont talk ever now and that’s the end,Don’t call or message me ever again !!”.
I got all the more angry,but this Time I told myself..whenever we had such break-ups I always used to message or call her up the second-third day and things got better.
But,this time I had decided not to do it myself.
I always thought,She loves me,she sang such lovely songs for me and the way we felt when we are together..she’ll miss me and call me back !
that NEVER happened !
I lost TRUST in People,Friends,Love etc !
and PEOPLE THINK I’M RUDE.
I CANT HELP IT.
I AM THIS WAY ONLY.
