Emptiness

She was crying on the phone sighing and asking me "Y ? Y Nitesh why ?".

I had no answer to her questionsand I couldn't help her either.

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I and Lavanya,were friend's since we used to go to school with the same rickshaw.
She was my junior,one year and I always treated as my best friend...

We played together and we did all the childish fun together...!
 
 but,It was later that she left this city as her father had got a transfer...and we parted from each other.

We didn't have cellphone then nor there was Mark to help us with his Facebook or Google's Orkut to atleast stay in touch.

 After,4 years...

I was new on facebook and I joined it so that I can keep be in contact with my friends in my busy life...and schedule...

 I was tired of my friends complaining..and saying "Dude,where the hell do you remain these days ?".

and I had so many things to do..that I was hardly free..!

        After,I joined facebook and started adding all my friends frm CMS...

There was a profile that just displayed randomly and caught my attention "Lavanya Khan".

I remembered my friend Lavanya...who was a die-hard "SRK FAN"...I sent her a friend request too...

after a few days..I opened my account again and the wall spoke to me...

"Nitesh,is this really you ? Its Lavanya here...remember me ?".

 
I never knew the world would turn small on this "facebook"...she was my friend I missed all these years....!!

I was happy to see her again.

 We started talking..remembering all those idiotic things we used to do...like getting off the rickshaw..dancing on the road and then running after the rickshaw to catch it...We had huge Fun....!!

But,I didn't have a computer then,unlike her...I had to use it from a Cyber Cafe....that too only when I was free....

the trip to cyber cafe was like in my schedule...twice a week....

we then decided to exchange numbers...and we were talking again.....!!

A few weeks later she told me...She would be in Lucknow again to pursue her education.

I was happy again.


She came to lucknow....and We talked on phone..and met several times aswell...!

It has been 2 years now....that she came to lucknow...and we still talk...go out and when we r together...It never felt as if we need to see watches...!!


she asked me "Nitesh,are you single ?".


I smiled and said "Kyun ? mere sath koi dusra bhi dikhta hai tumko ?".

she said "seriously batao na".

I said "aur kitna seriously batayein be ?".


A few days later,

We met in the evening at around 6pm..and it was just the outset of cold days...and the weather seemed to change in the evenings into a cold one.

 we were found of walking..and we often strolled down paths...talking to each other...

She held my hand as we were walking...we never minded holding hands while walking...

but that day her hands felt softer than ever to me..and I felt something inside me....!

I looked at her as she held my hands...

and she said to me "Nitesh,I love you..and I've always loved you since we were kids".

I was startled...

A tear drop came out of her eye as she said those words to me....

I didn't have an answer to her.

I just wiped her tear..and all I could say was "I never can see you cry".

It was quite late..and I dropped her home...and I went home....!

All the while..I was driving...I was just thinking of her words....!!

   As,I reached home...I could see her missed calls on my cell...but I didn't know what to say.

I recieved her call later that night....

and said "Lavanya,I've already loved my share of love to someone,and I'm left with nothing...
if you still wanna be with me,I can be with you".

she was in tears,I could sense that..she said "all I need is your love Nitesh".

"Lavanya,I wish I could..ur the only Girl in my life now..and I've already loved someone...I can't love you...but can stay wid you if you want".

She "Whose that Girl Nitesh ?".

I was controlling my tears and said " Someone no one needs to know about now !".

she said "Y ? Nitesh y ? y didn't u ever tell me ?".

I said "You never asked and nor did I intend to tell".

She was crying and so was I...

as she shouted "I hate you Nitesh,I really hate you".

and I said "I know you do hate me !".

We still are FRIENDS.

I still know she loves me..and she still knows there's no other girl in my life than her !

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"Rekhaaon ka Khel hai Muqaddar,

Lakeroon se...tum haare jaa rahe ho..."


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