Sunday, September 16, 2012

Unusal EMAILS.


I was sitting with Ishita,holding her hands,as she was as usual talking more than I was,but I loved her stupid tallks anyway-especially the way she spoke making chilidish faces !
  I was looking at her face as she talked and I noticed something-which I didn't like-and moved my hand over to her hair and took off the clip that was tying up her brownish hair that fell in a way uptil her shoulders making her look more wonderful !
 She said "Nitesh,don't do this..you know I hate my hair coming in my eyes".
 I : " and you also know,I hate seeing your hair tied-they look just so wonderful".
 She looked in my eyes,and I followed her with a smile.
*We Kissed*.
It sometimes just happened on its own,we never cared of what was happening around-people watching us,we just did what we wanted !
Hands slipped into each others,we never knew WHEN-It was some kinda bond that was between 'em or rather she just culdn't walk properly without holding my hands.
"LOVE IS CRAZY THING-MAKES YOU FEEL STUPID & BE STUPID AT TIMES.
& when its OVER ! you just miss being STUPID !".
I was thinking of the day,as she talked,of the day we got together.
 I was talking to her on the Phone,just like the Good Crazy friends we were-when we suddenly started talking of emotions-love etc ! felt like some Magic-for it was somehing we never had talked about before-but we were discussing about it !
 I was telling her "Love is something-I never waited for happening-for oneday I guess it'll just happen eventually-may be I realize it a little later that I was or am in Love,but I will".
 She " You're into Philosophy ?".
 I "Yeah,and ur my disciple !".
 That's how we were-we never said "I LOVE YOU" to each other-but then we still understood each other-nd that was enough !
She " Nitesh,are you listening to me ?".
 I" Hell,yeah Bitch".
 She " what was I saying DOG ?".
I " Ummmm....something abot shopping may be".
*she started hitting me*
I was laughing n saying " If I started hitting you-then you'll see".
 She " Yeah and I have Women comission".
I Hugged her,and that was the END ! We walked across the street holding hands to the parking lot,where I had parked my Bike.
    On the way back- I met an old friend of mine called Yash.
 I introduced Ishita to him - "Hey,Yash-that's my Bitch".
 *she kicked my feet*
 He "What ?".
 I laughed " I mean my friend".
 *They shook hands*
I,my friend had a little boys talk and then I n Ishita headed for the parking lot !
*I Dropped her home*
 She looked uneasy to me.
   I asked her-Ishu..what Happened ?
 She said the usual nothing !
I was about to leave,when she said "Wait !".
 I said "aagyi line pe,ab batao what's the matter ?".
 As soon I finished my last words- SHE KISSED ME !
 I was kinda taken aback- I gave her a "WHAT WAS THAT LOOK ?".
 She said "You can go now !".
 I was like..HUH ?
 She started moving toward sher house which was like 100 metres from the place I always used to leave her".
 I said " Bye Ishu Moti-See ya tomorrow".
 She "or may be not".
 I was like "Wateva" and drove away !.
There was something about Ishita-she talked like a LOT-but she never talked a lot about herslef or family-it was later only I came to know things and then she would say " I was about to tell you etc etc".
 still I knew-I've this one person who really cares for me and no matter what she'll always stick around !
The next day it was 1pm and I had not even received her "GOOD MORNING" message ! and that NEVER happened.
 I called her up and the lady said " The number you are trying to call is currently switched off".
 Now,that was weird !
anyway-I waited-TWO DAYS and no SIGNS of her ! her Facebook account was also deactivated.
 I decided to go n see her at her place n there was a lock at her door-!
 I then thought-that the whole family must have gone somewhere for a holiday or something important !
Time passed.
First it seemed like a week holiday,then a two week..gradually,it seemed like a month and then I finally realized her "May be not" was something like NEVER !
The madness in Life had just slowly walked out-Friends didn't feel like friends anymore !
The world works on a simple principle
"If you can give the WORLD what it wants,the whole Wants you,else ur just a piece of Trash".
  I decided not to have people close to me,keep my heart out in a box,lock it and throw the key in an ocean and I guess that's what I did figuratively !
   
 I often get Emails-by various names like Arjun-Rajni-Amarpreet-Dilkusha asking me of how I am !
 But,I never replied to these emails !
I actually sometimes think they're from ISHITA-but then I want her to come up n say it herself..that 'It's me NITESH and I LOVE YOU".
 All this time-after she left I realized may be-we were never FRIENDS-it was a bond that got us together and that bond is called LOVE !
 "Sometimes you realize it late-but when you realize-make the best use out of it" ! :)

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